My Birthday

Hi everyone! I know it's been a few days, I just have not been up to it.  It's been up and down, I haven't even worked on my journal for Abigail either.

Today is my birthday, It has been a wonderful day, but I am still sad.  I wish Abigail was here, but I know deep in my heart, she is in the best place for her.  I met up with Kelly from Bethany today.  It was so good to see her.  She told me some opportunities to help other birth mothers.  I am planning on going to the next support meeting in Indianapolis.  I am looking forward to November, there is a panel meeting that adoptive parents have to go to.  Birth parents talk about their experiences through the process of adoption.  I get to see Kelley in two weeks, can't wait to see her!

Abigail is six weeks old today, I can't believe it!  Today, there was a few people I talked to about Abigail.  I showed pictures and told them my story.  It was hard, but  I love talking about Abigail.

I am so blessed Church landed on my birthday, because it was so calming.  I always put in a prayer request for Abigail, and her parents.  Praying for their health, wellness, and family.   I know I made the best decision, but my heart is making it hard, which is normal.


This year has gave me a reality check.  I have matured and am working on getting my life in check.  I have many goals now and are working on them.  I can't wait in the future to be able to tell Abigail that she has a brother or sister.  Church, family and friends, and Abigail  have been helping tremendously, showing me that life is worth it!

I am excited, tomorrow I get to order pictures from the photographer that took pictures of Abigail.  They turned out so beautiful. I am so proud of her, She is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen!! Praise the Lord!!

I did find out today that her birth father didn't turn in a paper I asked him to.  He promised, I should of known.  I am just upset for Abigail, It's her loss, not mine.  She needs to know about her father to.  It's important.  But God is in control, he will lead the way.

I would like to finish this off with two of my favorite verses, I hope I don't offend anyone:
   "He who believes in me... out of his heart  will flow rivers of living water."  -John 7:38

  "May the God of hope fill you with all the joy and peace in believing that you may abound in hope."  --Romans 15:13

God Bless,
Jessica