Great News!!

I'm sitting here, it 846 am on May 20.  I have gotten some wonderful news last night. Kelly, my pregnancy counselor from Bethany sent me an email.  She was asking me if I wanted to speak for a panel group in Crown Point, about my experiences about being a birth mom.  Of course I said yes!  I think this was God's plan on bringing that sweet Angel Abigail into this world for me to speak to others about adoption, being a birth mom, and telling my story.  I am so excited to share my story, but I am not going to sugar coat it, I am going to tell them my dark days, my depression, and my sadness that I still have even though it been a year.  I am still down, I still doubt my self but it is not as bad as after Abigail was born.  My mom pointed this out to me, that I get really down and its get bad when its been a long time seeing Abigail.  I think that is true.  I am so glad that I get to see Abigail this weekend.  I am ready!!! lol.  I still can't believe it has been a year .  Right now, I was on bed rest trying to keep my sugar and blood pressure in check. I was doing word searches to ease my nerves.  I knew it was coming, reality was hitting.  But you know what, it was the hardest four days in my life, but I survived. I am so thankful I had such a good support family, God, my parents, Nana and Papa Bob, Tabby,  Josh, Douglas and Kelley, Aunts, Uncles, My kitties, Nurses and Dr. Wiesse.  Thank you Lord, for bringing in this sweet angel Abigail into all of our life's!!!

Abigai's almost 1!!

I haven't written in awhile, it has been a crazy few months!! Between school and work there wasn't a lot of time to do anything.  Our sweet little angel is going to be one in two weeks, where has the time go by.  I can't believe it has been a year.  This time last year, actually today I was taken off of work and put on bed rest.  That precclampsia was kicking my butt bad, but I did not want to realize it I wanted to work till the end but it got to bad, and I realized, I had to take it easy, I didn't want to hurt that sweet Abigail that was floating in my belly, lol.  It has been a rough few weeks, it was birth mom's and mothers day and just reliving what was going on last year at this time.  It was a great birth mom/mothers day weekend.  It was hard but with the support of  my parents,God, Nana, Douglas, Kelley, and friends, you guys helped me through this.  In twelve days,  We get to go to Abigail's first birthday party,  we are all so very excited. I can't wait, it's been since December since we have seen her in person.  She is so beautiful and very long.  Before when I was still going through the planning process of Abigail's adoption, I didn't think I was going to make it through. But I have learned a lot through this process.  I have became a strong woman, making new friends, going through things and succeeding through them, and have new members of our family, Douglas and Kelley.  They are the best!! They have made it so good for me and my family.  On Facebook and chats, through pictures and videos we don't miss a bit, and inviting us to her dedication and her first birthday.  I am so glad God lead me to them through the family picking.  They are truly angels and thank God everyday for them.

Love you guys!!