Great News!!

I'm sitting here, it 846 am on May 20.  I have gotten some wonderful news last night. Kelly, my pregnancy counselor from Bethany sent me an email.  She was asking me if I wanted to speak for a panel group in Crown Point, about my experiences about being a birth mom.  Of course I said yes!  I think this was God's plan on bringing that sweet Angel Abigail into this world for me to speak to others about adoption, being a birth mom, and telling my story.  I am so excited to share my story, but I am not going to sugar coat it, I am going to tell them my dark days, my depression, and my sadness that I still have even though it been a year.  I am still down, I still doubt my self but it is not as bad as after Abigail was born.  My mom pointed this out to me, that I get really down and its get bad when its been a long time seeing Abigail.  I think that is true.  I am so glad that I get to see Abigail this weekend.  I am ready!!! lol.  I still can't believe it has been a year .  Right now, I was on bed rest trying to keep my sugar and blood pressure in check. I was doing word searches to ease my nerves.  I knew it was coming, reality was hitting.  But you know what, it was the hardest four days in my life, but I survived. I am so thankful I had such a good support family, God, my parents, Nana and Papa Bob, Tabby,  Josh, Douglas and Kelley, Aunts, Uncles, My kitties, Nurses and Dr. Wiesse.  Thank you Lord, for bringing in this sweet angel Abigail into all of our life's!!!